Leaves of spring rustle outside my window
Like many of the thoughts inside my head
Blinding myself with a blizzard of snow
Leaving the steely world behind for dead

I look inward upon my undone wrath
So afraid of the flavor I must taste
Struggling I start upon a new path
Moving slowly around this newfound waste

Looking very deeply inside myself
I walk among the ruins of my dreams
Seeking a path across a sliding shelf
Why does nothing ever be as it seems?

Why do I put myself through this?
This roller coaster of emotion
The ups and downs that I am feeling
The highs and lows having no traction

The highs I feel when you are around
The lows that I feel when you are not
I know that I want you to be around
But the things I want may be for naught

Why can’t I control myself with you?
You get me out of my comfort zone
You make me feel so comfortable
But my feelings, can these be my own?

I don’t know what it is I want done
I don’t know where I want this to be
Emotions in turmoil I do feel
Why can not a clearer path I see?

Disjointed my thoughts have so become
I move with them but do not follow
I find myself in a place of dark
The world having become so hollow

Feelings again roil inside my head
A look, a touch of a ghostly hand
Moving the thoughts and my emotions
Against the tide hoping I may stand

Why do I feel this way?
This feeling deep inside
Emotional turmoil there
Cloud my thoughts in this night

What goes on in my heart?
What goes on in my mind?
I follow barren trails
Searching what I know not

Why do I miss you so?
My thoughts go out to you
As my mind searches now
I know not what to do

You brighten every day
To know you is such joy
To never even met you
I should not feel this way

The path winds in my head
A journey in itself
I wish I knew the way
To steady unsure seas

I want a steady hand
Upon my roiling heart
For less indecision
From this so unsure heart

Of you my thoughts are in the deepest night
Your eyes, your beauty intoxicating be
To dream of you and me forward I do look
To float in such bliss in my dreams can I see

To hold you, to touch  you, to kiss you  I do
To want and to need you, is that where this leads?
My feelings bursting inside me can I feel
Can this feeling, emotion be all I need?

Can this pleasure I feel when I look on you
Be much more than a feeling of simple lust?
Can it blossom and grow? Can it be all that?
Of this and my feelings, I do hope and trust

I’m comfortable with you
I really don’t know why
We’ve never even met
Even though we try

Sharing things I’ve never
Things I feel that I should
It seems like you do too
Like I knew that you would

It feels like I know you
Seems like it’s forever
Our thoughts so much in sync
Never had this ever

If I knocked on your door
Would you let me come in?
And if you said you would
Where should we begin?

Hold you tight against me
That is what I would do
Trail kisses down your neck
I know you’d love that too

Into the night we would talk
You know it would be true
Can think of nothing better
Than spend that time with you

As I sit and watch this game
My thoughts drift out towards you
Wondering what you’re doing
Hoping you think of me too

Feelings well inside of me
Of words that I want to say
Of thoughts, things I want to do
Of being with you on this day

Strongly feel more than I’ve felt
In a very long, long time
To move, to dance with you tonight
Would truly be most kind

I hope you’re feeling better
I hope you’re up to this
I pray we get together
So you I do not miss