Be There Till The End

If I could take away the darkness
And wipe the tears away
I’d do it in a heartbeat
To keep your demons at bay

You say you can’t handle it
That life’s too hard to take
That’s just a little lie
That your demons like to make

I don’t know what I can do
I don’t know what I can say
I’ll be on this path beside you
Just you know
That if I can, I will
Be there till the end

You want us to have peace
And have all that life can give
But I’ve found that that’s a dream
That reality outlives

Happiness I have
Whenever I’m with you
The good comes with the bad
No matter what trials we go through

I don’t know what I can do
I don’t know what I can say
I’ll be on this path beside you
Just you know
That if I can, I will
Be there till the end

You’re not in this alone
Although it feels that way
I’ll never leave you hanging
As beside you will I stay

Know I’ll be beside you
Know that if I can
Know I’ll be there
Until the very end
I’ll be there till the end
Be there till the end

Within My Worried Mind

As my heart yearns for you
About you I worry
When I don’t hear from you
My mind jumps to bad thoughts

For days I text you
For nights I agonize
No response
What have I done?
What’s wrong?

With your problems
I worry a lot
If something happens
Will I get a call?

I’m so afraid of losing you
So afraid that one day
One dreadful day
I’ll wake up and you’ll not be there

When I’m with you
I am happy
My world has meaning
At last
Through you

Frightened I become
When disappear you do
I worry so
That you have succumbed

From woe to woe
My mind does dance
As it tries to make sense
Of your silence

Are you dead?
Ignoring me?
Or frightfully
Gone down a dark path in your mind?

I love you
In love with you
I am
I can think of little
Nay, nothing
That thrills me more
Than trying to make you happy
Whole
Loved

Blessed I have become
In knowing you
In loving you
Thankful that you have I found

But still my mind
My psyche
My soul
Is pained by thoughts it engenders

To hold you
To love you
To keep you safe
My mind feels I have failed in this task

So along I plod
Worry in tow
Till that time when again
Your voice I will hear

For you worry will I carry
Within my heart, my mind, and my soul
Till my last breath exhales
Till my eyes do not see
I will always worry for thee

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On the sheets on which you’ve lain
Lingers your scent so enticing
My nostrils it does intoxicate
Bringing back mem’ries of you

I almost feel your skin so soft
Underneath my wandering hands
Wondrous is that most random smell
That takes a physicality

If only that I could feel you
Your body pressed hard against mine
Your heartbeat and breath in rhythm
To the love that is between us

But a memory is all I have
Of lovely nights spent together
Until that day in the future
That together we shall obtain

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Across the table I watch you
The glint in your eye and your face
But there are things that I can see
Things that you think that you’ve hidden

I do not know why you do that
Keep secrets that you must keep straight
Do you fear I’ll think less of you?
Embarrassed of what you have done?

Honey, you don’t have to hide things
Ours is a relationship strong
Jealous I can be, I can judge
But in this I would be so wrong

If I love you like I say
If you love me as much as I feel
Together we can overcome
Adversities that we create

Before the next time things you hide
Before from your lips those words fall
Know that I might be disappointed
But my love will forgive all