I search my mind for answers
To the questions of my life
Finding in truth no solace
As this road winds ever on
Thoughts upon me heavily weigh
Hefty in their repose
A burdensome responsibility
That lies upon my heart
If ever comes a rejoinder
To my plaintive queries
I hope and plan and pray
That the answers lie in you
The boat tosses and turns
You look for a point of escape
All avenues are blocked
Trapped without a choice
Voices appear out of the air
Pulling you this way and that
One says listen to me
A voice rising above the din
The sea of emotions
Upon which you sail
Never calm, never still
Tosses you blithely about
You find an anchor
It washes away
It seems yet again
Another false hope
Again the voice is heard
Rising mightily above all
Telling you things to be done
Against what you know is right
Feeling small you cower in fear
Defeated you give in
The voice has its way
Drunk in its malevolence
You ride the waves of the sea
Emotional highs
Emotional lows
Never ending, always there
The voice goes into hiding
Relief, release from the pain
The anger, the hate, the horror
Gone for a time too short
Calm for awhile
The sea is still
Your mind and thoughts serene
As you sail on an even keel
Too soon the storm returns
Seeming stronger than before
Extending its wings
To make waste of what can be
Again you hang on
Again you ride the waves
You pray you can survive
This onslaught against you
The voice is heard
Loudly now
Struggling to get out
Wanting more control
Upward highs
Downward lows
A roller coaster ride
Then the cycle repeats
This tossing boat of emotion
Tires you, exhausts you
But no rest does come
No reprieve from this stormy sea