Why do I put myself through this?
This roller coaster of emotion
The ups and downs that I am feeling
The highs and lows having no traction

The highs I feel when you are around
The lows that I feel when you are not
I know that I want you to be around
But the things I want may be for naught

Why can’t I control myself with you?
You get me out of my comfort zone
You make me feel so comfortable
But my feelings, can these be my own?

I don’t know what it is I want done
I don’t know where I want this to be
Emotions in turmoil I do feel
Why can not a clearer path I see?

Disjointed my thoughts have so become
I move with them but do not follow
I find myself in a place of dark
The world having become so hollow

Feelings again roil inside my head
A look, a touch of a ghostly hand
Moving the thoughts and my emotions
Against the tide hoping I may stand