A lifelong friend I did not seek
When hid among chaff I found you
Brightly upon my heart you shone
A light within the life I had

Happiness unto me you give
Standing behind me and in front
As the situation does call
Without your support I am void

The love I feel, the love you give
Without condition, without strings
I just want you to know truly
You…you are my wonder woman

Will you to me today talk
Or still will you silent be?
Within your darkness hiding
In places your hurt unseen

Solace seeking your heart does
Elusively a perch find
The darkest hole, a dim path
From the pain you insulates

Upward, yearning does your soul
Seems a path without ending
To find the hope you desire
Pain and misery to stop

Halfheartedly I stumble through
A sympathetic soul to find
The void that you have left to fill
Emptiness within me does grow

Unstable rumblings fill my gut
Whenever your thoughts turn to me
Butterflies within me churning
As your voice my ears are hearing

Underneath thoughts that are laid bare
Throughout my life I’m missing you
Forgotten moments, forgotten joy
This second, this minute recurring

It’s not the same without you here
Without your witty demeanor
To wipe away the days weary
To buoy my tiresome façade

Back to me will one day you come?
Does this hope lead not to despair?
All I can do and all I pray
Is that one day you will be there

With hope I call you, answer you do not
Asleep you must be, wrapped within torrid dreams
Comforted and appalled, mind contradicted
Climbing slowly up, barely making way
Consciousness too, in spite, eludes you
Another day of wasted relief

Relief of the burdens of normal life
Decisions on the back burner are left
For another day, for another time, left bare
Consequences one way or another come
For those decisions dropped and likewise made
Delay indefinite holds upon you

For now, rest you within comforting dreams
Your life by your imagination bound
Frozen underneath fears paralyzing
In your short respite your mind takes solace

My love a small thing is not
Rather more a river it is
Briskly flowing unto my heart
Welling mightily from there out

For you, work I the little things
For the bigger ones mean much less
My want: more time with you to spend
My need: more love to you to give

As a heartfelt note this verse take
Inside your bosom to cherish
The promises herein hiding
Until time comes them to let show

Under guise of nothingness
Walks a woman incomplete
In pieces, broken is she

In the darkness, her mind
Treading paths unseen
Lives emotional turmoil
In many facets existing

Under cover of night
Controlling, struggling
Unendingly floundering
Plotting to destroy
That vessel they created

Resistance, her muses twisted
Bewilderment abounds
Astonishment, hatred
Unbound fury unleashed
Against their bonds straining
One by one her voices subside

Upon her soft tortured soul
A stark calmness comes to rest
Respite from a strained affair
Her mind heals its tattered shreds
In its inner reaches lurks
A shadow hidden unseen
Begins again the cycle
Of the woman incomplete

We sit in this bed
Sometimes together, sometimes alone
Talking, laughing, sleeping, loving
Leaving each other for awhile

Sometimes hard, sometimes good
We make this work, we make it great
Just want you to know
There’s no place or one with whom I’d rather be

Beside you I lie
Listening
Watching

Slowly your chest rises
I hear you breathe
Softly exhaling
Inhaling

Your beauty
I gaze upon
Lovely
Inviting

Your lips pursed
I move forward to kiss
To feel
To savor

Feeling love
I pull you close
Hearts
Beating

Interwined
We stay
Locked together
Alive

I search my mind for answers
To the questions of my life
Finding in truth no solace
As this road winds ever on

Thoughts upon me heavily weigh
Hefty in their repose
A burdensome responsibility
That lies upon my heart

If ever comes a rejoinder
To my plaintive queries
I hope and plan and pray
That the answers lie in you

The boat tosses and turns
You look for a point of escape
All avenues are blocked
Trapped without a choice

Voices appear out of the air
Pulling you this way and that
One says listen to me
A voice rising above the din

The sea of emotions
Upon which you sail
Never calm, never still
Tosses you blithely about

You find an anchor
It washes away
It seems yet again
Another false hope

Again the voice is heard
Rising mightily above all
Telling you things to be done
Against what you know is right

Feeling small you cower in fear
Defeated you give in
The voice has its way
Drunk in its malevolence

You ride the waves of the sea
Emotional highs
Emotional lows
Never ending, always there

The voice goes into hiding
Relief, release from the pain
The anger, the hate, the horror
Gone for a time too short

Calm for awhile
The sea is still
Your mind and thoughts serene
As you sail on an even keel

Too soon the storm returns
Seeming stronger than before
Extending its wings
To make waste of what can be

Again you hang on
Again you ride the waves
You pray you can survive
This onslaught against you

The voice is heard
Loudly now
Struggling to get out
Wanting more control

Upward highs
Downward lows
A roller coaster ride
Then the cycle repeats

This tossing boat of emotion
Tires you, exhausts you
But no rest does come
No reprieve from this stormy sea