Ordained

If I could tell you
That this is ordained,
Would you believe me
Or think me insane?

The feelings I feel
So deeply for you
Come to the surface
Because you are you

Different this time
The love that I feel
In before “fallen”
But never as real

Think of you constant
Thoughts every day
Just wanting you near
Your fears to allay

Together in dreams
All that I can see
Apart in this life
But want you with me

The smell of your hair
The touch of your kiss
The warmth of a hug
These things do I miss

I give you my love
From my heart to thee
If ever again
With me do you be

65

If I said I missed you,
Would you even care
That my heart is hurting
Over things I do not know

A turn have we just taken
Down a path we can not share
Do not wish to be without you
On any path without you there

The silence that I hear
Is deafening to my ears
To hear your pristine voice
Turns happiness from tears

I can not take back my love
Or put my feelings away
To deny myself these things
Denies the love I feel

If you chose to come back
To be together again
Know that you will find
A lover and a friend

Waiting

I wait for you
Late at night
In bed
On the couch
For a message
A text
Anything

It does not come
But I wait
Am I in love?
I believe I am
I can’t wait to talk
To exchange ideas
To experience the person that is you

I’ve felt this way before
But differently
With you there is a true connection
An unspoken bond
A deepness
Conversation not one-sided
Love and respect
Seen through typed words

When we’re together it has almost a solid presence
You can touch it
Feel it
And know that is real
Not a phantom
Not a sham of that which it is not

Do I love you?
Yes
Deep inside
I grow more to love you
Everyday
Missing you
Deeply
Wanting you near
Wanting you here

I dream of you
Beside me
In bed
Out
Facing life together
A team
Against which we will prevail

Am I just dreaming
Or is it real?
Do we have this entanglement
Of emotions and souls
That lead to something greater?
Do you know?
Do you think?

But again alone
Am I this night
Waiting
Hoping
Searching
A message
A text
I wait still
Patiently
For you

61

The walls close in upon me this night
Foreboding, gloomy
Stark unfeeling sentinels
My mind races
Memories fleeting
Thoughts of better times
Standing watch against the approaching doom

I search in my heart
My thoughts awhirl
For some anchor
Some point of light
Upon which I can harness my soul
To weather these storms of inconvenience
To keep myself sane in the night

To you
My thoughts
Unfolding
My heart yours I give
These unwelcome moments
To spend with you
Solace to my tortured mien

What Do You Fear?

Are you scared of the feelings that you feel?
Do your problems you fear rattle me?
Do you worry at night,
Waking in fright,
That I’ll walk out that nearby door?
Do you think from you I’ll flee
When hidden are your problems no more?
We all have our problems
And by you I’ll stand
For the door you have opened to me.
No longer should you worry or live in fear
That you scare me so much that I crack.
For your feelings I know are the young girl inside
Struggling to make herself known.
So put your mind at ease
And your spirit to rest
For tomorrow I’ll still be here.
Standing beside you
Showing my love
To the one my heart longs to be near.

58

Should we dance around this candle
This deep feeling within our hearts
Or should we take a snowball’s chance
And let these feelings loose
To find a love so deep
To find a love so strong
Tell me my sweet love
Could that be so wrong?

Never Doubt My Love (For You)

When it’s late at night
And you’re all alone
Sitting, waiting
Beside the phone

What do you think?
What do you feel?
What do your thoughts
To you reveal?

Do you think of me?
Do you think of me?

Never doubt my love for you
Never doubt my feelings true
Never doubt
Never doubt
Never doubt my love for you

Sitting by the fire
Watching the crackling flames
Kisses to be exchanged
Tired of all the games

Where do we go?
What do we do?
Can’t think of my life without you

This strange path we tread
To this moment’s led

Never doubt my love for you
Never doubt my feelings true
Never doubt
Never doubt
Never doubt my love for you

I’ve never met a woman
That has meant so much to me
Never had this burning love
Never have I felt so free

No hiding behind facades
Babe, with you I am myself
To have you with me today
Takes my heart down off it’s shelf

So……

Never doubt my love for you
Never doubt my feelings true
Never doubt
Never doubt
Never doubt my love for you

Never doubt my love for you
Never doubt my feelings true
Never doubt
Never doubt
Never doubt my love for you

Never doubt
Never doubt
Never doubt my love for you

Never doubt
Never doubt
Never doubt my love for you